The journey continues

Well my 1 week break turned into a 10 week break. My injury hurt more on the mental side of the weight loss journey for me. After a week I just couldn't get back into the groove. My eating got progressively worse as time wore on. I started to slowly pick up all of the bad habits that I had given up over the last 8 months. I was eating poorly. I was not exercising. I was behind in my Karate class. I could see the difference in my body after not taking care of myself. My discouragement fueled more bad eating, which made me more discouraged...Anyone who has been obese knows this cycle all too well.

My wake up call happened when my wife and I found out that she is pregnant! This really struck a cord for me for a few reasons. First of all I want to be around for my kids for a long time. Having another one made me reflect on how I had not been taking care of myself for the past 2 months. Also, when Carrie found out she was pregnant with our youngest son I told her it was good motivation for me to lose some weight. However, after Oakley was born it really bothered me looking at the pictures of his birth. I hadn't done anything about my weight and I was ashamed. I didn't want to go through that again.

I started to get back into the swing of things a week ago, and I have had some time to reflect on the past few months. First of all it would be easy to be discouraged about it. I gained around 15 lbs or so. It is going to take some work just to get back to where I was at the beginning of August. However, in the past I have never been able to recover from something like this. I have lost weight before and once things started to go bad it was game over. I think it is because of how much I have learned this year. I am just not able to bury my head in the sand and pretend like everything is OK while I am not taking care of my body. I also felt like total CRAP the last 2 months. Emotionally and physically I have felt like garbage the entire time. I don't think I'll be able to forget how bad it was.

So now what? I'm going back to what worked for me before. Eating right, running, Karate, and a weight program. I hope by Thanksgiving to lose at least 10 of the lbs that I have gained. So far I'm off to a good start. I'm going to update my blog each Monday with my weigh in.

I know that there are going to bet set backs like injuries and mistakes along the way. I think next time I'll be ready to deal with it with a healthier attitude. Have you lost your way on your fitness journey? You can make it back. If I did it you can too.

Here is a pic of me when Oakley was born, May 2005. I will look totally different when the new baby Billings is born in May 2007!